9/23/13

the biggest lie

Some mornings, I wake up at 7:00, make two cups of coffee, and stroll to work/class as I savor the aroma of the most decadent liquid on earth- and suddenly I feel like I have my whole life together. I could conquer the world with 16 ounces of caffeinated liquid flowing through my body.

Some days I even put on clothes that aren't wrinkled.
Some days I brush my hair twice.
Some days I even sit on my porch and enjoy the crisp (...usually hot) Milledgeville air.

But most days, I don't.

Most days, I roll out of bed 12 minutes before class starts, I still manage to make coffee, but there is no savoring the source of my energy, because I just don't have time.
I don't have time to iron my clothes and I don't have time to sit on my front porch and read.
It seems like I really don't have time for anything these days. 
...or is that just the biggest lie I tell myself?
I know it is.

Those four words make up the most common phrase I use. Admittedly that phrase becomes a common theme in my life.

Its so easy to compare yourself to the people around you. Multiple times a day I look at the people around me and think "How do they have time for all of those activities?!" And then reality slaps me in the face and reminds me that every person on the planet has the same amount of time in a day. How you spend your time is whats really important.

Recently I have been learning how spend and manage my time more efficiently- and it isn't easy. This society we dwell in forces us to feel the need to be busy all the time. We live in a fast paced world and I often get caught up in the hustle & bustle of life. I feel overwhelmed by my time commitments- school, work, ministry, friends- the list goes on. And I know that I can't create time- but lately, I've been learning to make time. Making time for friends, making time for Jesus, making time for ministry. Spending my time more intentionally and less selfishly.

The truth is, I do have time for a lot of things. 168 hours fill my week, buy why do I allow myself to be suffocated by the phrase "I don't have time."  As much as I  wish I could add more hours to my days, weeks and months, I can't. I have a decision to make every morning when I wake up- a decision about how I will spend my day.

How I spend my time is a conscious decision- when will I stop letting my lack of time be an excuse?

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